Saturday, October 22, 2005
10:29 AM
im back!korea's cool..n cold..for some time..i cant get over the food..coz itz so spicy and saltish in korea..n in singapore it tasted so bland..then i lost mi appetite for quite some time tat i tot im anorexic..but im glad im eating now..:)..on the plane back to korea..passed by taiwan..cool..i wanted to hop off the plane..i like taiwan not coz of 5566..not realli coz of the shopping..but coz of the feeling i got there..itz the feeling i will nv find anywhere..as happie as it is..actualli i think the feeling is as sad..last yr..i went there without any feelings left..with the heart to give up everything..nth more for mi to dwell on..nth more for mi tat holds mi back..itz like..i can leave the world without any worries..without anyone worrying for mi..maybe tats y..i like kao siong!!itz not very city..and it carries countryside taste..:)..after the trip back from korea i realised i like countryside!!..hmmm..well..when i came back everything has changed..im remaining strong..n i still will..i believe in fate..and destiny..n tat they r in mi hands..juz tat i wanna control or not..i'll see wad the truth is exactly in time to come..i'll look forward to the future..:)..i know mi blog is full of virus..ahhaz..i'll be changing mi blog soon!!:)..sch will be reopening soon..time pass so fast..time to pia hard again!!but..i cant help getting worried for mi mom..:(..but i know..she'll be alrite..everytime i see her being so nice to mi..i wanted to tell her the truth..but im not prepared yet..
though im afraid tat wad i'll rather it not happen will happen..though im afraid of facing mi own fate and destiny..coz im afraid they wont be how i wan them to be like..but i think the fear is normal bahz..i will remain strong de..so sorri to all mi frenz..whom i didnt turn to at tat point of time when it happened..but i had mi reasons..i'll tell u all soon okie?and i'll date all of u all out next wk..ehz..except for yana i will wait till ur fasting is over..:)..
the last neoprint. last poke. the sports. the 3 email drafts i wrote long ago but didnt send in the end. words i wanted to say but swallowed all down. see the face clearly again. the 2 parts in 'gu dan bei ban qiu' tat i don wan to say out here. no more waiting after sch. no more complaining. no one realli understanding mi probs in poly life and family matters.
the card. the card. the card. the card. the card. tats a major thing im afraid of in mi fate.
itz not tat ive always wanted to fly away..itz becoz no one tries to hold mi back..
